TRACKLIST:
TRACKLIST:
SIDE I:
1. these blissful days shall soon end
2. one arm and no luck
3. its like living with holding your breath
4. the waves disappeared
5. to isolate
6. old man dying of cancer
7. in seclusion you dreamt
SIDE II:
8. the stars hallucinated hope
     I (0:00) - the stars
     II (1:56) - wailing sirens
     III (7:22) - all things beautiful are a reminder of death
     IV (11:15) - agleaming stars
     V (14:47) - .... . / . -. -

 release this when im dead 

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RELEASED: aug-23-2025
TRACKS: 8
LENGTH: 41:11
TYPE: LP

REVIEW:
This album gives me feelings I can't quite express, but I'll try. At times, it's almost meditative,but then comes in with sounds that evoke a feeling of yearning or nostalgia, lending itself to an overall journey of an experience that I'm very glad to have found. Hit me harder than I was expecting, but in the best way possible. 
~ allatonce-notnot-toofast on bandcamp

CONCEPT:
March 21st, 2025 I attempted to end my life. I shoved a plastic bag over my head, though I didn't fully expect to die, I just wanted to escape by any means necessary. After failing, I took the plastic bag off my head and went outside. While outside, I had a wave of clarity hit me and I discovered what there is to live for; a stark contrast to how I felt minutes prior. I desperately wanted death beyond anything else I had ever had desire for. Everything was all so abrupt and sudden. There was no steady build up towards my breaking point, a million things flooded me all at once and one thing led to another; the complete and total submission of my will to anything. This record is about that total submission. This record is about the impossible circumstances in which a human would surrender their entire existence. This is an expression of not only my fall, but also my spring; an expression of jubilee not only for myself, but for anybody else lost out there. This is an expression of hope in a world stained with pessimism.